Sunday, November 15, 2009

Sometimes you gotta start clean, You gotta begin, not begin again, oh no...

I'm in love! And it's the real deal.

I haven't felt this way since my massive crush on an absolutely fabulous Nigerian gentleman in February or March, earlier this year. This time, however, it's a couple that has stolen my heart. The term threesome now has a whole new sheen to it ;-)

It's all thanks to a lame TV serial that I've recently been watching late into the night - Dirty Sexy Money. As one of the episodes came to an end, I heard this beautiful intoxicating sound that just seeped into me and I've been hooked ever since.



It's the folk-pop band - The Weepies! How have I not heard them before? They are absolutely amazing and don't let the name fool you; they make you do anything but weep (unless they're tears of joy)! So if you haven't heard them before, please make sure you do ASAP. And if you already have, shame on you for not telling me sooner!



The Weepies speak to me in a way that nothing has in the recent past. Last week, I managed to get my hands on three of the four albums they've released since 2003 and I haven't stopped listening since. The fourth album is a smallish one compiled exclusively for iTunes and anyway, has some of the songs from the other albums.

I love the clear and earthy voices of Deb Talan and Steve Tannen and there's not a single song that I want to skip while listening. I also find the simple, clean acoustic sounds very uplifting; even the sad songs make me smile. And the lyrics! All I can say is WOW.

Someday when we're old and worn
Like two softened shoes
I will wonder on how I was born
The night I first ran away from you
.

These lines are from my current favourite song - Somebody Loved. It's a song from their first album (Happiness, 2003), and maybe I like it because it's the first one I heard but it's just lovely. It's my new lullaby and I've been falling asleep to it every night since I first heard it.



The title track from Happiness is another favourite (the title of this post is from the song). I also love World Spins Madly On and Painting by Chagall (Say I Am You, 2006); and Can't Go Back Now and Old Coyote (Hideaway, 2006). Oh, who am I kidding? I LOVE them all. To repeat myself, their music is just so simple yet intoxicating - like home-made wine!



I'm so tempted to add a music player widget to my blog right now, so that you can have a listen. But I have to back-up my hard disk, have lunch, and then decide whether to make a birthday cake or not for tomorrow! So just search for The Weepies on Youtube and listen to some of their songs, before you decide for yourself.



Ok, I'll be nice and link just a couple - Somebody Loved and Painting by Chagall. Let me know what you think of them, and also if there are other similar, fairly new artists that you think I might like. I've been stuck in the 60s and 70s for far too long!

Also check out this interview of The Weepies, it's really interesting.

In case you're wondering, that wonderful Nigerian gentleman I was talking about earlier is Fela Kuti. The flames still burns, bright and strong!

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Selamat Datang!

There's a sudden spurt of visitors to my blog, and they're all from Malaysia. I'm curious as hell about this (I'm also curious about almost anything that does not concern me!) and would really like to know how and why...
So if you're from Malaysia please humour me and drop me a line in the comments box, tell me how you got here :-)

P.S. If there's a mistake in the title of this post, it's Google's fault!

I Am Not Sad

And that's all I have to say about that.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Empty Oyster

Sometimes, the more you know about someone else, the less you want to reveal about yourself.

If the world's a stage and we are all merely players, where is the audience and who is really watching? (If you can answer this question without words like "God" and "supreme power", I'm all ears.)

There is always a moment between two people, no matter how fleeting, which cements the relationship forever, no matter what the relationship. Sometimes you see it in tangible references all around you, sometimes you're left with only the memory of how it used to feel.

Too many times your life depends on the whims of others. Not many of these others could care less about your whims.

You can choose to lose your life either in a flash or slowly; all at once, or one day at a time.

A simple thing like waking up at 8 am instead of 10 am, on a Saturday, could change your life forever. And you might not even realise it until 12 years, 10 months, and three days have passed by.

A restless afternoon could remind you of the time water fell into your lunch while eating, or the time you dropped coffee on your eggs. While even the stillest of nights will not bring back the memory of the last time you felt loved.

If you knew the first time you were saying Hello would also be the last time, would you say it with more feeling? And if you knew that the last time you were saying goodbye was not really the last, would you save some of the feeling for later?

And sometimes, we all leave without saying goodbye.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Coffee-shop nothings, and a bit of bliss

Sipping on a hot cappuccino at one of my favourite coffee shops this afternoon, with the rain plopping gently outside, I learned the following:

1. Matt Damon's daughter and I have the same name.

2. Naseeruddin Shah admires Farah Khan as a film-maker.

3. Carol Gracias is learning French to impress her French boyfriend.

4. Men who give me a second look will most definitely have something wrong with them, such as talking loudly about crop signs and the certainty of aliens.

5. My pregnant, pervert friend gets her jollies from visits to her OB-GYN. Which explains text messages that go something like, "Bitch, why do you have to call when the only man to touch me in a long time is about to start?"
Believe me, dear reader, I cleaned that up a whole lot for you. Not only is my pregnant friend a big pervert, she is also quite abusive and very bad at spelling and grammar.

6. Happiness can actually be bought; such as a small box of Tic Tacs @Rs 10 after an amazing hot cappuccino. Bliss!

7. Credit cards can, sometimes, make you feel safe; like you can have Rs 600 left in your account and still while away a rainy afternoon at a coffee shop, trying to chase your roof-over-head blues.

8. A fair amount of charm and a sweet smile or in my case, the silly and somewhat scary giggles of a 35-year-old woman, can actually go a long way.

So I walked out of the coffee shop, and into the rain, with a FREE bag of enough Italian style medium roast ground coffee to last me a couple of months! Which will go nicely with the coffee plunger set I bought. The best part - I was actually kidding when I told the guy at the counter that I would only buy the plunger if he gave me the coffee for free.

No, you cannot see pix of my loot. And no, I will not tell you which coffee shop. I don't want my new boyfriend to lose his job ;-)

Sunday, November 08, 2009

A Thousand Words, and More...

Grandpa, circa 1945


Grandpa on the left, blessing Dad on his wedding day - November 26, 1968


Dad and my Granny, 26/11/1968


Wedding Party, 26/11/1968


My cute older brother. How lost he was before I came along ;-)


Little Cakecutter, January 23, 1976. Yes, yes, it is me!


Grandpa, Mummy, Daddy and the little prince who hogged all the pix before I was born :-)


Sorry, I have very shaky hands but I just love this pic of Grandpa carrying my brother. Dad says since my bro is just a small baby in this one, I can pretend that it's me! Never go to my Dad with a problem, this is what he does.

Saturday, November 07, 2009

Grandpa's Days and Nights

Here is Part Three of my Grandpa series. (In case you've missed the earlier two, here are Part One and Part Two)

Sometime in 1953, Granny moved the entire family to Bombay, which meant a 24-hour journey by the steamer ships of the old days. (I have spent many a day and night traversing the “rough seas” on an empty stomach. And thanks to the motion sickness that I was born with, I puked my guts out all the way from the Bhaucha Dakka ferry wharf in Bombay to the Panjim jetty in Goa.)

Grandpa had travelled to Bombay several times before, when he worked in the merchant navy. Though, he made sure not to stay more than a day or two. He loved Goa; it was where his home and heart was and always would be.

Now, living in Bombay fractured his identity and sense of belonging. It was a city that didn’t speak his mother tongue or his dreams. It was the bustling nerve centre of a country that recently had the sweet taste of freedom. A taste, he could not partake of because his home was still weighed down by the shackles of colonialism.

Then, in the 60s, when the fight for freedom back home gained momentum, its ripple effects travelled to the shores of Bombay where the tiny expat Goan community banded together in solidarity.

Grandpa had a routine in those days. He would wake up every morning to the radio playing his favourite Western classical music. He would get dressed, have his breakfast and watch his three sons leave for their respective workplaces. Then, he picked up his umbrella and mumbled goodbye to Granny as he set out for the public library. She always reminded him to bring the umbrella back and not leave it behind inga tinga (here and there). He always came home without it.

At the public library Grandpa would read from 10 am to 1 pm; the day’s newspapers, journals, magazines, any books that caught his fancy. Then he would return home for lunch and by then, one or two of the boys would also be back. He sometimes asked them about their days and what they were up to. Most of the time he ate in silence; while Granny complained about the neighbours, the maid, the laundry down the road, the butcher, the vegetable sellers, and about Grandpa as well.

One day, as Grandpa was leaving the library to go home for lunch, he heard about some commotion going on near the church. So instead of taking his usual route of going down the street with the mosque in the middle, Grandpa went by the church to check out what was happening. A large crowd had gathered outside the publishing office of a Bombay-based Konkani tabloid, and several policemen were trying to control the chaos.

This paper, which came out once a week and was circulated among the expat Goan community in Bombay, was published by a Goan Catholic family that were known to be pro-Portuguese. Grandpa did not favour their views or subscribe to this newspaper. That day, or maybe a couple of days earlier, an editorial in the paper belittled freedom fighters in Goa by calling them “lions abroad and lambs at home”. So all the patriotic Goans, who did not like this editorial, gathered outside the office and protested.

Back home, Granny turned to the clock on the wall repeatedly and asked her eldest son, “Why hasn’t Daddy returned as yet? It’s past his lunch time.” She repeated this several times and then left to go and gossip with one of the neighbours. Her son, who was working the second shift and had to leave for work a few hours later, decided to take his afternoon siesta. (A lovely habit he has managed to continue throughout his life, and still follows!)

A while later, Granny and Grandpa’s eldest son, my father, was startled by a rap across his rear end. He woke up to find his father, who rarely spoke to him, now yelling at the top of his voice, “What are you sleeping for? Don’t you know what’s happening near the church? Those imbeciles have written nonsense. Get up! Go and protest, like the other young men.”

Not too happy about being disturbed during his siesta, Daddy reluctantly got out of bed and went to call his mother. Granny came running home to serve her husband lunch and to listen to an earful of complaints, “Your sons are useless. Are they going to remain asleep their whole lives? Don’t they want to go back home? Don’t they want to become part of India?”

If nothing else but just to check out what all the noise was about Daddy, who was still in his shorts, ran out of the house towards the church. After having his lunch, Grandpa too returned to the hotbed of activity. The protests continued and a few weeks later, the editor of the newspaper was packed off to Goa. The police thought that it was the best thing to do. He was too much trouble in Bombay and in Goa; his beloved Portuguese would take care of him.

Apart from the odd protests, the second half of Grandpa’s days also followed a routine. After a lunch of mostly fish/beef curry and rice, Grandpa would take out his little tiny transistor radio and catch up with the news and later fall asleep to the strains of Handel, Beethoven or Tchaikovsky.

A short nap later, he would wake up and have tea with Granny. He would potter around the house for a bit and then, around 4.30 pm, he would set out again. This time, he would head to the football ground to watch the young men play. It reminded him of his days back home when, every evening, the boys of the village would gather in the fields to play football.

By 7.30 pm, as the young men stopped their playing, Grandpa would head back home. He would shower and wait for his sons to return home. The family then had dinner, which was usually roast beef or beef chilly fry or beef in some other form, and chapatis or bread.

So that was Grandpa’s day for a long time. Later, when his sons got married and the grandsons were born, Grandpa would spend his days with the little ones. When they grew a little older, he would take them to the circus or to the beach or for a buggy ride near the Gateway.

Grandpa also briefly worked as a cashier at the men’s salon run by a friend. He did it as favour and also to get away from Granny’s incessant chatter. Sometimes, his oldest son’s boy would come to visit him at the salon. He would jump up into Grandpa’s lap and make him open the till.

The little boy would then scoop up fists full of coins with each of his tiny toddler hands and grin at Grandpa, his favourite person in the whole world. Grandpa counted all the coins his little grandson took and let him keep them. Then, he made a note of the amount and deducted from his salary at the end of the month.

Grandpa spent a lot of time with this grandson, and the rare pictures that we have of him were mostly taken with this little fellow. I have never been more jealous of my brother! There isn’t a single picture taken with only my Grandpa and me :-(

To be continued.

Friday, November 06, 2009

Court Quotes

Sorry, but I just could not resist posting this email forward. It's absolutely hilarious! Besides, I'm dead beat from house hunting and have no energy to write a fresh post. Enjoy reading, and have a great weekend.

These are from a book called Disorder in the American Courts, and are things people have actually said in court, word for word, taken down and now published by court reporters who had the torment of staying calm while these exchanges were actually taking place.

ATTORNEY: This myasthenia gravis, does it affect your memory at all?
WITNESS: Yes.
ATTORNEY: And in what ways does it affect your memory?
WITNESS: I forget...
ATTORNEY: You forget? Can you give us an example of something you forgot?
___________________________________________

ATTORNEY: Do you know if your daughter has ever been involved in voodoo?
WITNESS: We both do.
ATTORNEY: Voodoo?
WITNESS: We do.
ATTORNEY: You do?
WITNESS: Yes, voodoo.
____________________________________________

ATTORNEY: Now doctor, isn't it true that when a person dies in his sleep, he doesn't know about it until the next morning?
WITNESS: Did you actually pass the bar exam?
____________________________________

ATTORNEY: The youngest son, the twenty-year-old, how old is he?
WITNESS: He's twenty, much like your IQ.
___________________________________________

ATTORNEY: Were you present when your picture was taken?
WITNESS: Are you shitting me?
_________________________________________

ATTORNEY: So the date of conception (of the baby) was August 8th?
WITNESS: Yes.
ATTORNEY: And what were you doing at that time?
WITNESS: getting laid
____________________________________________

ATTORNEY: She had three children, right?
WITNESS: Yes.
ATTORNEY: How many were boys?
WITNESS: None.
ATTORNEY: Were there any girls?
WITNESS: Your Honor, I think I need a different attorney. Can I get a new
attorney?
____________________________________________

ATTORNEY: How was your first marriage terminated?
WITNESS: By death.
ATTORNEY: And by whose death was it terminated?
WITNESS: Take a guess.
____________________________________________

ATTORNEY: Can you describe the individual?
WITNESS: He was about medium height and had a beard.
ATTORNEY: Was this a male or a female?
WITNESS: Unless the Circus was in town I'm going with male.
_____________________________________

ATTORNEY: Is your appearance here this morning pursuant to a deposition notice which I sent to your attorney?
WITNESS: No, this is how I dress when I go to work...
______________________________________

ATTORNEY: Doctor, how many of your autopsies have you performed on
dead people?
WITNESS: All of them. The live ones put up too much of a fight.
_________________________________________

ATTORNEY: ALL your responses MUST be oral, OK? What school did you
go to?
WITNESS: Oral.
_________________________________________

ATTORNEY: Do you recall the time that you examined the body?
WITNESS: The autopsy started around 8:30 p.m.
ATTORNEY: And Mr. Denton was dead at the time?
WITNESS: If not, he was by the time I finished.
____________________________________________

ATTORNEY: Are you qualified to give a urine sample?
WITNESS: Are you qualified to ask that question?
______________________________________

ATTORNEY: Are you sexually active?
WITNESS: No, I just lie there.
____________________________________________

And the best for last:

ATTORNEY: Doctor, before you performed the autopsy, did you check
for a pulse?
WITNESS: No.
ATTORNEY: Did you check for blood pressure?
WITNESS: No.
ATTORNEY: Did you check for breathing?
WITNESS: No.
ATTORNEY: So, then it is possible that the patient was alive when you began the autopsy?
WITNESS: No.
ATTORNEY: How can you be so sure, Doctor?
WITNESS: Because his brain was sitting on my desk in a jar.
ATTORNEY: I see, but could the patient have still been alive, nevertheless?
WITNESS: Yes, it is possible that he could have been alive and practicing law

Thursday, November 05, 2009

Baby Come Back


Baby come back, any kind of fool could see
There was something in everything about you
Baby come back, you can blame it all on me
I was wrong, and I just can't live without you


- Little River Band

The other day Dad and I were standing outside on a pavement, waiting for Mom to finish some impromptu shopping. Suddenly this whiff of smoke hit me in the face, assaulting my senses and pulling me back in time. I looked to the right and saw this man standing next to us, puffing away on a cigarette.

I asked Dad if he could figure out which cigarette that guy was smoking because it smelled so bloody familiar. Dad said he didn't have a clue because his sense of smell has diminished with age and anyway, by then, the man with the cigarette had walked away. Then I asked him if it was the same brand of cigarettes he used to smoke when I was a teen. He shook his head again, "I told you I don't know. Go and tell Mummy to hurry up, she is such a pain! I want to go home and snooze."

That smell made me crave for the past again, and not only because it reminded me of the cigarettes that Dad used to smoke years ago. It actually made me feel like lighting one up myself and taking in that first deep, mesmerising drag. You see, I started smoking by robbing my Dad's cigarettes when I was around 15 or 16. Both my brother and I used to do that!

Dad had stopped being a chain smoker back then and would only smoke a couple of cigarettes in day. So, he didn't carry them to work and always left them at home. We morons, of course, pinched them all the time. Dad was a bigger moron actually, because he never realised they went missing!

Anyway, that was a long time ago and none of us smoke anymore. We have all gotten older and wiser (the jury is still out on the latter) and cigarette smoking is a like a fond old memory that fades with time.

But that afternoon, standing on the pavement with Dad, for one split second I felt like pinning that man down, grabbing his cigarette and puffing away till I died.

Ah! intoxication... How do we live without it?

Disclaimer: I don't advocate smoking and neither am I going to start smoking again. Please don't smoke. It's not just injurious to health, it's a direct expressway to hell. Yes, we're all going to die someday. But when you are in the final stages of lung cancer, you're going to wish you weren't born at all. Seriously, don't smoke!

Note to Self: Remember to delete post before Dad checks blog again!

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

Blogger's Heart

First off, thanks to everyone who left comments on Dad's post. Blogging is a new and exciting world to him and he is enjoying every minute of it. Dad isn't computer savvy at all; in fact, he hasn't used a computer in years. So he found it a bit difficult to type a longer post. I will try and get him to post more often and on topics that will definitely interest everyone.

Dad is a wonderful person and I'm not just saying this because he is my father. Everyone who meets him falls instantly in love with him. I curse myself everyday for not being like him!

My father and I have a lot in common and we get along like a house on fire. Temperamentally however, we are poles apart! He is calm and collected and always a pleasure to have around. I'm just a nasty bitch!

I must add that Mom also enjoyed the post and the comments but she's asked me to remove his pic. She's quite superstitious and since Dad doesn't keep too well, she worries. I just left it up long enough for all my blogger friends to come around and have a look. Dad was pretty nervous when he saw his pic, and kept asking me to take it off :-)

My mother used to be a nurse and she really takes such good care of Dad and the rest of us as well. She's a little less frivolous than us, a LOT more religious than us, and doesn't get our jokes and mad behaviour. So even though I have very little in common with my mother, I have her temperament. Except that she has calmed down a lot with age and is just irritable now and then. She's definitely not a nasty bitch like me!

Mom and I have had a very complicated relationship over the years. We've seen more downs than ups but now, I've come to terms with it. The bottomline is we are flesh and blood and we love each other no matter what. We just agree to disagree now :-)

It took me a broken marriage to realise how important my mother is to me. I wish it didn't, but that's the truth. I am now able to let go of a lot of the past, which I realised was nothing but just unnecessary shackles around my heart. I am more open and free to love those around me now, because little by little I'm learning to love myself.

Since I'm baring my heart out to all you wonderful people, I may as well get this off my chest. The last couple of days have just been one roller-coaster ride. I was very excited to have my folks over - we laughed and joked, blogged and read comments, enjoyed drinks together, watched TV together, ate together, went out for a lovely seafood lunch, just chilled... It was such a peaceful, easy feeling (Thank you Eagles!) until last evening.

Mom and Dad went back to their place and I was at home missing them, when my landlord comes around. He had just come the previous day to collect the rent, and we discussed renewing the lease since it just expired. He said fine and that he would draw up the papers, took the rent cheque, and left.

Suddenly, last evening he comes back again and says he's selling the flat and I need to vacate! I must admit, I was very upset at first and really panicked. Anyway I have asked him for a month's notice and he has agreed. Then, after one surprising but heartfelt phone conversation, and a couple of really helpful emails and online chats, I calmed down and realised that it's actually a blessing in disguise.

I really should have moved out of here last year when my husband and I separated. I moved out of the bigger flat we stayed in together, but I stayed in the same apartment complex. It's really nice if you're staying with someone and have your own means of transport. I have neither and it's been a terribly lonely and inconvenient year.

Most days, my domestic help is the only human contact I have. She's a wonderful woman and has really been my pillar of strength through these trying times. She's the only one I'm going to miss when I move out of here.

The thought of moving again does seem like a pain in the neck (dealing with brokers, rejecting hundreds of flats till I find something decent, packing, moving ect) but I'm just going to look at the bright side.

I hope I find a cosy and clean little flat in a decent locality, that is also well connected by public transport. Of course, a nice coffee shop in the vicinity wouldn't hurt either ;-)

Monday, November 02, 2009

Presenting CC Chronicles' first and, might I add, highly distinguished guest blogger!

My parents are visting me and I showed Dad the blog posts I did about Grandpa (Here and here). He is very intrigued by this whole "blogging business" and is always asking me questions about who reads me and what kind of comments I receive. So today, he agreed to do a small guest post for me:

It’s always a pleasure to read something written by your children. And if the content is about your parents, then it’s pure nostalgia. To read the account about my father was like a wonderful glimpse into our family's past. It made me emotional and I found my eyes turning a bit moist. Parts of it also made me laugh so, on the whole, I was very happy to read it. I am extremely proud that my little one has turned out to be such a wonderful writer. Of course, I always knew she would be one.

OK, I admit I had to bully him into typing that out but the words are all his, promise! Dad loves reading all the comments you guys leave and keeps asking me who you all are. Maybe all you lovely people will have something nice to say to him as well?